I Cried every night of the DNC. YES BOO HOOed. My child asked if I was okay, because I was crying so hard. I cried when Michele spoke about the little girl from the south side that excelled. THAT WAS ME TOO, and I know others that were not as fortunate and it was not because of lack of desire, it was due to lack of exposure and opportunity. I cried when Hillary spoke, because I know she ached, but held her position for the PARTY. How incredible? I cried when Jennifer Hudson sang the STAR SPANGLED BANNER. YES I probably needed a Prozac too, but that's not the issue.

The issue is regardless of Party, RACE or Gender the time is now to look at what has happened in the past 8 years and decide we have had enough. YES WE CAN-make a change

I received a message here that we should never regret the past, and I had heard it several times before, but it really hit me this time. I know it is because of this mess going on, I AM A TOTAL MUSH.... Don't tell anyone, but I even cried on that ASPCA
commercial. Anyway I often wonder where these people are and how are they now?

#1 My preschool teacher, especially the one that didn't believe that I had to "use it" and I went on myself to prove it. Does she know I remember that day?

#2 My first bus driver who on Halloween wore a Ernie face every year. Not scary huh?

#3 My first cat Buffy, who made my sister so jealous she would try to flush him down the toilet

#4 The family down the street with 7 kids, and 2 tried to be my friend and left with my Barbie clothes in the pocket? Have they been arrested yet?

#5 My first heart breaker, because I was only in 2nd grade, did I really know love?

#6 The people that stole my dog Rocky, are they resting in hell? How do you take a 6 year old's Benji dog!! I was the only one in the neighborhood that had a Benji dog!!

#7 The 21 year old man that I began to date at 16 because he looked like Prince-I wonder if he made it home after my mother cussed him out about being "too damn old" he left really fast

#8 The kids at RE-RE's aka Ms. Marie' s where I learned the alphabet and how to "go" in the right place successfully. I made a lot of close friends at 1-3 years old.

#9 My first TRAMP roommate..oops, I meant college roommate that had a man sleep in her bed in the shared room on the first night we move in. I wonder if she speaks to children on the horrible effects of (tramping)venereal disease...People love to hear from first hand experience.

#10 My 2nd college boyfriend who gave me a beautiful silver 350, that he decided to teach me how to use in the parking lot. Of course Tramp in #9 told the resident director that I was shooting at her. I want him to know that was a great gift, and with good behavior you can come home early and immediately go get the Food stamps for you and your 4 baby's mothers....

Take the time and think...Do you have some people you just wonder about? Tell me about it.

I know this is an awful topic, but facing a grandmother that is declining and often forgets even how to button a shirt, lead me to thinking about other illnesses. And I have a question? Is it better/easier to deal with cancer (and still be able to live life and think) or have dementia and at times barely exist?





What so you think?

Today is payment day at my DD daycare. Since this was also the closest I could get to a 4 week notice, I decided to send my payment in a lovely thank you card. I am happy to say that my child will be leaving this overpriced, all day television watching, cookie eating setting for ALLDAY Preschool!!

So trying to be cordial and nice, I go to hug my child and Ms. Know it ALL (MKA), as we affectionately refer to the daycare owner, in my house, immediately wants to know what is in the card. "OH NO-OH NO, what is that, what is that?" was gasped loudly. So I tell her that we will be leaving soon for a real school. She immediately shouts "which one which one, because if it is a bad one I'ma (spoken as one word) tell you." All I could do was look as the passed 2 years of bewilderment came to my head....

FIRST, Why do you think you know every DAMN thing? MKA earned this name because no matter what topic, what day or language, she will have either a story to trump yours, or has so much knowledge that she must cut you off to tell you what you must do!

Secondly, if I am standing at her door, with my withdrawal notice in my hand, what makes her believe any comment from her, on the school we have selected for her to attend would make any damn difference at this point?

Third, If she was so well versed on the "good schools", why doesnt she try to emulate them instead of putting the children in front of the Disney channel all day?

Forth, why does it cost $ 25 per child to go to Chuck E Cheese, for a field trip?

Fifth, why when I come early are you not home and your husband is playing Playstation while the kids nap, and tells me to hold on so he can save the game?

Sixth, why why why when you see me running in, do you decide to talk about some BS like your hair? Why not ever stop me to talk about the progression in my child, or how she is recognizing SIGHT WORDS, that you probably don't know.

Anyway, I left and immediately put on NEVER WOULD HAVE MADE IT, by Marvin Sapp. Because only GOD knows, how I have made it this far.

To all childcare providers, we need you and truly thank you for taking good care of our babies. Yet you MUST KNOW WHEN TO SHUT THE F UP.....Sorry

Fysty MaMa

This has been the longest week ever. I have started so many projects and promised to quit my job so many times I think they guess as to whether I am coming or going. Today one of my co-workers gave me the number to a good "shrink" that has helped a lot of people she "knows"....

TANGENT----Why the hell is it when you work with women, especially young spoiled brats who dont know their butthole from a hole in the wall do you always have to walk on eggshells? This other psychotic Lisa Bright and Dark Chick starts off a BEE-ATCH and then mid-day wants to come and laugh, joke, and save the world. Within the next ten minutes she is back at the crab from hell. She especially hates it if I, someone close in age, yet her superior, repremands her... Oh well, she probably needs the referral from the other lady

Anyway I am glad for the weekend.....

PS...I am in more contests!!
Go over and visit MOMSATIONAL and check out the cool contests!!
Also

Ok, in this time of craziness, yet high period of boredom, is it okay to internet date? What if the profile is fine as all get out and he has the resume of "Mr. Positive Role Model", should I trust it?
I have had many friends and coworkers that have landed their prospective wives/husbands through this internet thing, all would do again. Yet, I am "paranoid patty" as some like to call me and just too scary to even make that move.

Yes, I do go out and meet alot of people there, and some say the risk is just as great, but is it? When this man knows a friend of a friend that dated my cousins sister in law? I can clearly check references and past dating issues through our common contact. Internet man can only be googled.

How about finding a friend? We are talking a man you may have known in a "past life", yet after reading his blogs and pictures and messages and blah blah.....you feel like you may have missed something. Is this the same thing as internet dating? It is the internet and although I used to know him, I dont have any contacts that can corraborate his new life. He could be the wild killer trying to end my crazy blogging streak.....

I have to admit I was once on Match.com. YES match!! I was getting old farts and bums off of the street with computer access.

Okay to get the full gst of this story we must start back in the winter when the spring products began to dot the aisle of the major department stores....

Here are more sites I have visited for wonderful items:

1. Christine is offering Blogger heading and setup help; as you know I need


2. Mommy Needs a Cocktail is offering wonderful items from Baby Brewing (robe, tee,etc.)
3. ThoughtsDujor is offering a $15 Cold Stone Creamery Gift Card
4. A Mommy Story is offering a Nintendo DS Lite perfect to practice at home so you are the "cool" relative at family functions!!

I think that is it, I am going to bed...Good Luck ALL

Alzheimer's Disease is a progressive disease, killing vital brain tissue, leading to decreased function, memory, and altered behavior.

I had muttered a statement very similar to the above statement several times to family members, caretakers, and friends never thinking any deeper than the physiological effects and how to potentially treat the disease. I have walked in the Chicago Memory Walk just to support numbers of people with the disease. I just never knew the depth of pain associated with the change in a loved one until I saw my grandmother progressively change.

Today, I finally made the appointment for her to see a geriatric specialist and my heart sunk. When I told her I knew she was about to lose it, as she is the lady to whom I credit all FYSTYNESS!! She once, when I was young, was cheated by the "friendly free cable guy". She saw him walking and pulled her car over to him on the street, pulled a gun and said something... That something I cant quite remember because she reached across me to aim it and I didnt even know she knew what a bullet was!!

So I just want to stay positive and think on the blessings of having her still here with me to share her periodic moments of wisdom. I am thankful that I have had so many wonderful years.

Yet, is it wrong for me to just be pissed off right now,thankful for her life, but just ticked off? Not necessarily mad at anyone, but just mad that it is my Grandma?

FYSTY